Hey fam, hey hiya, how are you doing? My little duckies and bunnies and all my underdogs it is me Bee Joy a.k.a. Latoya Justice Shari and I am society Campbell’s to be showing you my blog now I have a few other blog some of them. I’ve decided to make them private for the time being and I will come out with further information later, butthis particular blog is when I’m going to allow to be public. I’m excited because I just turned 40 January 12 and it January 16, 2026 and I’m thankful because even though I am going through a lot right now just like most people I look good and I feel good. I’m in school right now struggling I’m just struggling to get through this 3-D class and if I have to retake it again, I don’t care because I really want to get the full acclamation. The struggle has been real and I have been installing I’m not gonna lie to you because it has been so much. I am going to go back in there put my best foot forward and pray to God I come out this class with a C I do not enjoy This 3-D class but I love art and also enjoy the journey. It’s just not so much learning the new things it’s more of the frustrating part of knowing that I’ve spent hours on doing something that I just don’t know how my Professor in in 15 minutes, but it’s because it practice he practice it and practice it and practice it and so I know that with practice It
2025. I was in a shelter in 2024. I was in a shelter in 2024. I also was homeless for a brief time twice and the second time is when I went into the shelter. The first time is when we were living in a hotel first and then we wind up getting our place and it all lined up 222 was actually the deposit we had to put down on our apartment. It was full alignment. However, the second time we lived in a hotel we lived in a car and then we ate at the waffle House. We went from there to going ahead and living in the shelter. My son, unfortunately was grown so he could not come with us to the shelter. The truth is I have this Mother girl, and wish that I would’ve just went back to my ex because even though it was domestic violence, even though he was doing a lot of sexually assaulting things and mentally abusing me And really being aggressive to my kids, I didn’t know what else to do. I had my own place for years and decades and I felt like that was all I knew and I gave that up to be with someone and I felt controlled. I felt bewildered and violated, and I felt like that before, but at least I have my own Place Once I moved into his place. I felt more lost than anything, and I clung to being with someone who I didn’t even need to be with not in a sense of it wasn’t a part of my divine journey because it was, but in the sense of at my best state being with this person or being involved with this person wouldn’t be a part of my dream.
I’m proud of myself because it’s 2026. I look delicious even though my face looks fucking in here but I got one of my daughters friends who are 13 years old. My daughter is in the seventh grade. By the way her friend told my daughter cause she was looking at a picture of my daughter. Phone of me. OK let’s just say I worded that wrong so her friend looked at a picture of me in my daughter‘s contacts and she said and I quote your mom‘s a baddie and it made me feel delicious because I know I don’t have all the things that all these baddies out here have I don’t care if you’re big small Tall short they be having their hair lace I don’t care if it’s natural they have them edges on lock with that Afro I don’t we have an act but to have that compliment come from someone and my daughter‘s age group with my daughter said it to me cause first you said mom, mom is that a new picture that you took when you went to go to court on your YouTube and I said yeah, I took that picture before with the court and she said look pretty on that picture and then she said my friend say when she looked at my phone that you’re a baddie and it made me feel special. It made me feel special. I got a lot of wonderful compliments on my birthday and it isn’t the same. I’m just swallowing my head up. It made me realize that all those times when I was with my ex or even with my mom or anybody and I was just hoping for a gift just hoping for a gift to show that you care the gifts were always there all along when someone give you a compliment when someone goes out that way to give you a meal when someone opens the door for you when someone says hello when someone says happy birthday to you just saying it even if they cut and paste it, they took energy to do it. It’s a beautiful thing and I’m thankful for that blessing. I’ve always felt like little things our blessings with this year and last year and the end of 2024 and I feel like the whole 2024 More than ever have took me through things that made me see the little things as blessings I feel like when I was 35 and I had already been doing the podcast for so long
I understood and understood as they say how much of a blessing it is to have little things. I’ve always had this understanding since the day that I was born all my trials and all my traumas have brought me to this point to understanding but now I’m at a point where I realized that there are a lot of different journeys, but there are also a lot of different origin stories that will get me to this point in my life. One of my favorite journeys in origin stories is how I even started school and finish business school and now I’m in Art School and I don’t know what’s gonna happen next I know that whatever happens next I’m gonna win. I’m gonna make it through no matter how much I have to keep going and fighting to try and that’s what I hope and pray for anybody who’s reading this well I don’t care if you’re starting this at 40 29 30, 5281. I want you to know that there’s always hope there’s always hope that you can make an impact on your life and others around your.
Today I had an opportunity to really dive into where my struggle is I originally published this on Instagram, then deleted it because I felt like it was more personal and so I wanted to put it on my blog There are a lot of things that I publish on my YouTube for my lives, but this particular origin story is how I became my own Riley in my whole life, even though my true origin is always been a Huey, and that showed me that he true duality of my mindset where I can even fumble my own way
I realize that I have a balance of humor and straightforwardness that allows me to find peace and chaos within the same setting, but the balance is joy
Right now, money is not money. I am really struggling and my son is helping me with a lot of things I have help from Safe Haven and thankfully I’m still able to have my Job substitute Teacher. I got an interview at Wendy’s and I have high hopes that I will get this job granted I’ve worked there three times. Let me show you what happened on my second time.
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